Dear Niall Horan...

I dont have enough words to tell you how I feel about you, and even all the time of the world wouldnt be enough. 
I know you will never read this, but I just wanna write it.
You've saved me so many times, in so many different ways...You're my dream, you're that kinda of person who can make my day without making any noise, without tweeting or something at all, just thinking about you can make me happy.
I know that whenever im sad, i can go search a photo of you and then, i feel like everything its possible, like i could fly or run over a rainbow.
You make me so happy, without knowing me at all, you don't know about my existence, but i know about yours. I wish someday i can meet you, and people may say it will never happen, but i'll try, and i won't give up, because you taught me that and i promise, i will never forget it. 
I love you my special snowflake. Thank you for everything you've done. 

I'm not alone

Siempre va a haber otra manera de escapar, nunca me voy a encontrar sola. Nunca tengoq ue dejar de soñar. Siempre tengo que seguir empujando. Hay muchisimos paises en el mundo, puedo cumplir mis sueños, puedo ser feliz, puedo luchar por ellos y si Dios me regalo la posibilidad de soñarlos es porque tambien me dio la posibilidad de hacerlo realidad.
A veces duele tanto soñar, pero es parte del proceso. Tengo que seguir con esto, no me puedo detener. Tengo que empujar y empujar, yo se que lo voy a cumplir. YO SE , yo tengo fe en mi y en mis sueños. YO SE que no me voy a rendir.
Yo si creo en que los sueños se pueden hacer realidad, y aun que me cueste aceptar que esta es mi vida, todavia tengo toda una vida por delante. y si dejo de soñar ahora ¿Que me queda para el futuro? Siempre estara esta vida esperando por mi, pero se que hay otra ahi afuera que me aguarda impaciente. No me pienso detener ahora sin esfuerzo nada se consigue. TENGO que seguir soñando. VOY a seguir soñando, y asi tambien, me voy a asegurar que MIS SUEÑOS, se conviertan en REALIDAD

A drop in the ocean - Ron Pope

A drop in the ocean,
A change in the weather,
I was praying that you and me might end up together.
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert,
But I'm holding you closer than most,
'Cause you are my heaven.

I don't wanna waste the weekend,
If you don't love me, pretend
A few more hours, then it's time to go.
And as my train rolls down the East coast,
I wonder how you keep warm.
It's too late to cry, too broken to move on.

Still I can't let you be,
Most nights I hardly sleep.
Don't see what you don't need, from me.

Just a drop in the ocean,
A change in the weather,
I was praying that you and me might end up together.
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert,
But I'm holding you closer than most,
'Cause you are my heaven.

Misplaced trust and old friends,
Never counting the regrets,
By the grace of God, I do not rest at all.
and New England as the leaves change;
The last excuse that I'll claim,
I was a boy who loved a woman like a little girl.

Still I can't let you be,
Most nights I hardly sleep,
Don't see what you don't need, from me.

Just a drop in the ocean,
A change in the weather,
I was praying that you and me might end up together.
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert,
But I'm holding you closer than most,
'Cause you are my 

Heaven doesn't seem far away anymore no, no
Heaven doesn't seem far away.
Heaven doesn't seem far away anymore no, no
Heaven doesn't seem far away.

nooo
nooo

A drop in the ocean,
A change in the weather,
I was praying that you and me might end up together.
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert,
But I'm holding you closer than most,
'Cause you are my heaven.
You are my heaven

Im holding you closer than most, cause you are my heaven

I know i lost him, i know i never had him too. But i wanna know if i keep dreaming; I will do all my dreams come true? 
What are thinkin the ghosts of me? Are they laughing?are they smiling at me? are they giving me support? 
My future its uncertain but people say: "Some people is destinated to the each other"
Am I going to find my lover? Am i going to wake up and have him grabbinh my waits cute and tightly? In 10 years, i will be where i want to be in a future? I don wanna waste my life running throw a rainbow and when im coming to the end of this one, see that im not getting my leprechaun. -i dont care of the gold- 
I dont wanna in a couple of years regret of what i didnt do than by what i did and just cant make it right again
I have to fight but if i fight with all my strong, what if my oppositor is more stronger than me?
I would gave my everything and lost the battle by the way.
But i know that i wouldnt be sad or regreted cuz i gave the best of me and it couldnt be something more


Let see if i get my leprechaun at the end of this rainbow! 

Why am I here?

Sometimes I ask to myself, Why am i still living?  If i cant make all my dreams come true, what's the point?

I was suppousted to be happy. If its not like that, why am i here? When I will start to live? cuz what i am living now is a nightmare and i just wanna get up.

I wanna get up in the middle of the night, see your cute face while you are sleeping, and just wake up not doing loud noises. caring about you. Caring about your good sleep.

But you dont care about me and now you got here, the perfect woman. Lot of people support you throw this but i cant, i cant support you while a teardrop is falling from my eye its not a happy one. Its just pain what im feeling right now

and sometimes i just think i lost you and sometimes when i see you loving her, i feel how my heart is getting more and more pain. I wish I could just forgfet you but my heart doesnt want to do it, cuz he is happy just watching a picture of you 

Babe you are my health but at the same time you are the poison that is killing me this slowly.

I think i lost you...But how can i lost you, if i never had you? 

Should I give up?

Some people cant dream, so they broke your own world that one where you can see colours, butterflies flying around you, happiness everywhere you walk to.
maybe its not the people, maybe its their best friend...the reality, better called "the life" 
there are times where i just think "what the fuck is life? " im supusted to be happy, to have love, to see everything in pink

I really cant undersand, i have a mission and im hating myself...i will win this fuckin battle like this? hating myself all the days just because i dont have another life?

If god is precious, if he loves me, why i get hurt? why he gives me dreams?....maybe there is a chance? 

im one in a lot of millions and f the heaven is the paradise, why am i here?

I have a mission and it seems that my mission would be see him with someone else.

I know im not perfect, im not beauty, im young, im not rich and maybe he doesnt know me....-yet- YOU SEE?! why i had to put that Fucking yet?!

but i know im good enough! i know i can make him happy

i know i can love him like there wouldnt be a tomorrow

thats what i do. i build a paradise on my head while i wait, even its painful when the life punchs me everyday...

I know that maybe there is no a tomorrow, so i keep dreaming, cuz if theres no a tomorrow...there is no other way i could see it happen.

I was praying that you and me might end up togheter

Creo que uno de los dolores más grandes que una persona puede soportar; es la DESEPCION
pero depende que tipo de desepcion, la de una amistad, la de un amorio, la de un juego inclusive. Pero la peor, la mas temida es la desepcion de los Sueños. 
tu, la has sentido? cuando vives una es duro recomponerse (claro que en cualquier desepcion es duro hacerlo pero en esta el dolor es donde se enfoca con mas fuerza) te explicare porque: si es una desepcion de un juego con el paso de las horas lo olvidas, si es una desepcion de amor en unos meses lo superaras.
Pero en la desepcion de los sueños no hay quien te salve...Solo los mismos sueños.
al anhelarlos tanto, comienzas a vivir otra realidad dode todo es capas de cumplirse si lo deseas arduamente, el problema es cuando vuelves a tierra. la realidad te golpea tan , pero TAN fuerte que dudas en volverte a levantar.
y esta no es una desepcion que puedas olvidar, porque la llevas dia a dia y es completamente dificil cambiarla por lo tanto vuelves a sambullirte en tus sueños. es un ciclo pero puedes cambiar esta rutina
puedes escapar de ella simplemente no pares de soñar. y asegurate de que estas luichando lo suficiente como para hacer de esos Sueños...una realidad.

One thing is clear, i dont belong here.

I never promised you a ray of light, I never promised there'll be sunshine everyday i give you everything I had, the good the bad.

•   Todo lo que amaba se volvió en todo lo que perdí.